That's how long we've been a family. It was 6 months ago to the day (it was even a Monday!-- Feb. 18, 2008) that we met our daughter for the first time...
We had arrived in Addis the night before, late, and crashed as soon as we got to our hotel, a mere 2 "blocks" from where our daughter was spending her last night at Hannah's Hope. We were so tired that the reality of what was going to happen in a few short hours didn't even keep us awake.
Early the next morning, the alarm went off. A and I looked at each other, not knowing what to say or really how to feel. I was nervous, excited, anxious, and, at the same time, very peaceful. We got dressed (I remember commenting that I needed to decide what to wear to meet our baby) and went downstairs to have breakfast with the other 2 families and our case manager, J, who happened to be in Ethiopia at the same time.
The other 2 families were down having breakfast with J. The mood appeared to be calm from the other families, and it was so wonderful to meet J after talking with her on the phone and via email for 8 months! Finally, someone spotted A, the director of Hannah's Hope, walking through the hotel gate and up the steps.
She came in, handed us more paperwork, and walked us through how to fill it out. Somehow, I managed to fill it out correctly although at that point, my mind was only on getting to R as quickly as possible.
Finally, we were all finished and were ready to go. A and I hardly spoke as we took the short walk to Hannah's Hope. We reached the gates, and I think I gasped. I had seen pictures of this entrance and wondered what it would feel like to actually step through them into Hannah's Hope for months now.

We walked through the gates, and to my surprise, the babies were all out getting their morning massages and laying in the sun, our daughter among them. We walked closer to the babies, and, suddenly, I spotted her, my sweet baby girl. I had expected to be taken into the main house and meet our daughter privately in a room. Nope. (The experience was so perfectly Ethiopian, and I love that we met her in this way!) She was out there with all the other babies, in a little prop-up seat facing away from us. I saw her beautiful hair and then her big toe. I had studied photographs of her for months, and she has this way of curling her big toe... She was doing it then, too.

A and I just stood there; I don't think either of us knew what to do. Quickly, someone picked R up and handed her to me. How can I describe that moment? I think it is probably impossible. I felt a mixture of the purest joy, happiness, and relief. I kissed her little forehead and gazed at her. She actually smiled at me! I guess she knew I was her mommy.

Some people worry about not loving a child they didn't give birth to, but for A and me, that wasn't the case. We loved her instantly. There was no doubt that this small girl was meant to be our daughter.


Six months later, unbelievably to me, I am more in love with this child than I was that day I first held her. R is the answer to my prayers, the brightest of bright spots in my life. Sometimes I look at her and am in awe that I was given the gift of being her mom.