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Sunday, August 4, 2013

I am SO not ready for kindergarten...

But SHE is!  My R will be a kindergarten girl in a matter of a few short weeks.  The idea of it, it makes me nauseous.  I mean, COME ON!  How is my teeny tiny baby girl old enough for this?  Where did the past 5 years go?

I am so nervous.  And I don't want my little girl to grow up.  I know I can't stop it, obviously.  And I don't want to keep her in a bubble.  It's not that.  It's just that...  ugh.  She's lived in this safe place since coming home.  A and I have been able to protect her and her sister, and I never had to worry about her at school either because her preschool is an amazing place.  When A and I worked, she was with either a nurturing baby-sitter, my parents, or my BFF, always along with her little sister.  Once she starts kindergarten, there will be this huge part of her day in which I have no involvement, in which I can't protect her from the word and keep her safe and innocent.

The school she's going to be attending is wonderful.  I am confident that she'll get a great education in a nurturing environment...  But everything changes when she's a school aged girl.  There just isn't any going back.  (Have I ever mentioned I have a hard time with change?)