Exasperated the other day, I said to R, "R, why do you have to follow me EVERYWHERE??!?"
(As in to the bathroom, to get a shirt from the laundry room, to get the mail from the mailbox, to well, everywhere! It was driving me crazy. I'd spent the morning practically constantly tripping over her)
And do you know what that two-year-old of mine said?
"Beedu (her made up word for because) I love you."
My R and I, we've been struggling lately. She's stubborn (and two!) and so am I. She's trying to assert her independence, and I'm trying to keep her safe and healthy.
I don't know if her near-constant defiance is adoption-related, two-year-old related, both, or neither.
What I do know is that it is exhausting. And stressful. Overwhelming, never-ending, sometimes just scary.
"Beedu I love you."
Honey-baby, I love you, too. And I pray that I can be the mom you need.